Friday, September 23, 2016

we gotta get out of this place ...

been dealing with this in varying degrees ever since my stroke. lately, it has become a real problem
the brain is a funny thing ... it is both my best friend and my worst enemy (and the only one that can hear me scream)
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We gotta get out of this place
If it's the last thing we ever do
We gotta get out of this place
'Cause girl, there's a better life
For me and you
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Friday, March 4, 2016

each and every day

Be grateful fot what you have!

Look on the Bright Side

Posted by Bright Side on Wednesday, March 2, 2016

Sunday, November 1, 2015

FODMAP's

 "Fermentable Oligo-, Di-, Mono-saccharides And Polyols."

Mark my words here and now ... FODMAP's are poised to become the next (irritatingly omnipresent) "thing" in the nutrition/health world.
So move over Gluten-Free ... there is a new kid in town that is kicking butt and taking names.

Authority Nutrition: FODMAPs 101: A Detailed Guide to The Low-FODMAP Diet

my head hurts

no ... its not the inexpensive (cheap) red wine that I drank this evening. my head hurts because I have been thinking about "religion" all day and my head always hurts when I contemplate religion. no changes in the way I view it and that is, perhaps, why my head hurts.
and by the way ... I will sleep very well tonight and not just because of the Merlot.

Friday, September 4, 2015

hmm ...

... for the first time in nearly 40 years I find myself responsible only for myself.
 it is an odd feeling but given my situation it is probably a good thing.

Friday, August 14, 2015

in search of "normal"

perhaps my biggest frustration in dealing with my disabilities is accepting my "new normal".
I dream (many times literally) of being "normal" again ...

  • to have a clear and unrestricted field of vision
  • to be able to walk without fear of falling
  • to be able to concentrate and speak as I once was able
  • to be able to pick up and hold my grandchildren
  • to be able to prepare food without the fear of amputating a digit (or two)
  • to be able to once again fly dual line sport kites
  • to be free of pain and the constant numbness in my feet and legs
  • to drive a car
  • I even dream of having a job again
I work every single day towards realizing those dreams even though I know that many (most) are unattainable, it would be a lie to say that there aren't times the frustration is unbearable and I lose it ... but so far I have always managed to refocus and get back on track. honestly, that is now my purpose in life ... not going off the "deep end". it is a very dark place that just terrifies me.

there is just one place I can go where I actually feel normal. sometimes, but not always
 I can close my eyes and get into a posture and meditative state where all my physical restrictions are no longer noticeable and my mind is truly at peace.
sometimes I feel that is the place I should be always ...

... do you think that is what heaven (or Nirvana) is like?